Music Monday-Blessings

This is my new favorite song!

I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do!

I also enjoyed the video about how the song came to be.  I love learning artists' inspirations for specific songs.  Enjoy!

Hope you are having a good Monday!

Quick Weight Watchers Update

So, I am a little confused.  Last week, the lady told me I gained a pound when I weighed in.  I never looked at my little blue book that she writes in every week.  There is also a white folder that you pick up at the door that they also write your weight in every week.  I don't really know why there are 2, but I don't guess that matters.  Well, when I was waiting in line to weigh in I looked at my book and it said I stayed the same....not gained a pound.  Then I looked in the white folder and it said I gained a pound!  Ha!  BUT, 

I lost 1 pound!

Or I lost 2 pounds....I lost one pound from my weight week before last.  So I either gained a pound last week, or I stayed the same......but either way, in the end.....I LOST!  Yay!  So I am down a total of 4 pounds in 4 weeks!  Hooray!  

And, well, I haven't done wonderful at the exercising for 30 minutes 3 times a week, but I have stayed active......like cleaning out our store room that has had the same stuff stored in it for 6 years.  Whew!  We worked from noon to 10 pm Saturday and noon to 8 pm on Sunday.  And, I vacuumed, armouralled (is that even a word?), and washed my car tonight.  I am loving this weather!!

This is Not a Road Block.....

Just a bump in the road.  I thought this was a good explanation for today.  I am supposed to be having a Sonohysterography today, but I'm not.  It would be the first step towards our IVF.  I am a little dissappointed, but not too bad. 

I was sick again last week (you will see that this is a pattern for me....especially this time of year).  I missed 2 days of work for something that I usually just would have worked right through.  I just had a sinus and ear infection, but my doctor said it was pretty bad so he wanted to try a stronger antibiotic.  Well, I had an allergic reaction to the medicine.  Yuck!  So, the jist of this situation.....I hate allergies!!  My allergies are the reason I had a sinus and ear infection, then I have an ALLERGIC reaction to the medicine that is supposed to make me feel better.  The allergic reaction was worse than the infection.  The reaction is what put me in bed for 2 days.  So anyway, since I just completed my new antibiotic that I got prescribed after having a reaction to the other one today, my RE wanted to wait until I am totally recovered before my procedure. 

And, I did not feel like I needed to miss work for something that I didn't HAVE to have done today.  I am very close to being out of days that I can take, so I would rather save those for just in case.  

And, we still don't have all of the financial stuff worked out.  My REs office is in a different state, and there is an REs office closer to us (but we don't want to go back there), so all of the insurnace and what percentage they will cover is still an unknown.  Apparently the insurance company wants you to go to the RE that is closest to you?  I don't know why that matters?  But anyway, they are working on it, but don't have a definite yet.   

So, with all of that I know this is best.  But you know, I am not wonderful with the whole patience thing.  I am much better than when we started this process, but not wonderful.

So, I will call and reschedule and I will keep you posted.

Oh, and while cleaning out our store room this weekend, I found all of the paperwork from our other RE!  Yay!  Now I can finish the "Infertility Resume" that I started forever ago!  I think I will start working on that tonight.

Music Monday-Better Than A Hallelujah

Better Than A Hallelujah

God loves a lullaby
In a mothers tears in the dead of night
Better than a Hallelujah sometimes.
God loves a drunkards cry,
The soldiers plea not to let him die
Better than a Hallelujah sometimes.

We pour out our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts
Are better than a Hallelujah

The woman holding on for life,
The dying man giving up the fight
Are better than a Hallelujah sometimes
The tears of shame for what's been done,
The silence when the words won't come
Are better than a Hallelujah sometimes.

We pour out our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts
Are better than a Hallelujah

Better than a church bell ringing,
Better than a choir singing out,singing out.

We pour out our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts
Are better than a Hallelujah

I really love this song!  It makes me happy, like rolling down the windows on a beautiful day, blaring the music on my car radio, singing at the top of my lungs kind of happy.  (Of course that would be by myself because I would never subject anyone to my singing!  ha.)

I hope you enjoyed it!

A Really Cute Story...

So first of all I have to mention.......I am SO over feeling sorry for myself.  I feel good about it, and I am ready to do this!  (I just have those moments every once in a while, but I usually get over them pretty quickly.....especially if I will admit that I am having "a moment".  I vented to my husband last night, and now I am ready to go!)  And who couldn't get over feeling sorry for themselves after this.......

Okay, so this just made me laugh so hard I had to share it with someone......who better than you guys!

I teach the preschool class at my church on Wednseday nights.  I think I have mentioned that, but anyway, I have all girls.  There are usually 7 of them.  The weather was so pretty yesterday and thanks to DLST we had more sunlight, so I decided to take the girls outside on the playground for our lesson......and of course to let them play!  They ran and played for a while, then they all came (on their own) and sat beside me so I thought it was a perfect time to read our bible story and have our weekly talk.  Of course if you know any preschoolers it is pretty hard for them to sit still, but they do pretty good.  One of the little girls, we will call her E, leans over and passes gas pretty loudly in the middle of the story.  It was obvious that it kind of shocked her and she proceeds to giggle and say, "I tooted!"  Then all of the other little girls start giggling.  Through my giggles I say. "What do you say, E?"  ~best part of the story~ And she says, "Just a minute Miss (my name).  I have to laugh about it first!"  

And when she got through laughing she very politely said excuse me.

Oh my these girls are great!  They have no idea how much they mean to me and how good it is for me to spend an hour with them every week!   

Of course the moment was lost and I let them go play again.  Sigh.  We will try the story again next week!

Just a Thought...

So most of you know that I have another blog where I document all the fun stuff that happens in my life.  I LOVE blogging!  Most of the time.  I looked at that blog today, and it has been over a month since I blogged one fun thing that has happened.

I hate that!  I hate that I take these breaks, but it seems like when there is a lot of other stuff going through my mind.....mainly about infertility.....I just can't bring myself to blog.  I have a habit of blocking out the bad.  I was going to say "bad habit", but I don't necessarily think it is all bad to only remember the good.  It's like for some reason I don't want to remember this time.  

I did the same thing last year.  I log onto my blog.  I have all of the pictures on the computer.  I've even already added them to my facebook.  I just can't find the words.  

It's like I just want to scream into the computer, "Do you people not realize what I am going through!"  And then I remember, I really don't want everyone to know what I'm going through.  Why is that??? 

I don't know.  

I mean, I am still doing fun stuff.  I am still having fun while doing the fun stuff.  But I guess I can't make myself blog about fun stuff when I've got so much other stuff on my mind. 

There have been some pretty special days in some pretty special kiddo's lives lately that I don't want to forget.  For some reason I feel the need to narrate everything on my blog......I have to tell everyone exactly what is happening in every picture!  Ha!  I don't really know why I do that.  Maybe I will just add the pictures.  Maybe I can make myself narrate them later.

So anyway, in case you read my other blog and in case you were wondering why I haven't blogged......that is why.  It is some kind of coping strategy that I have learned along the way.........it is like I am blocking this time out of my life.

Music Monday (or Tuesday)-Your Hands

I know you hate to see me cry.  One day you will set all things right.

I love this song.

I am feeling sorry for myself today, and I shouldn't be.  So I think I will keep my thoughts to myself. 

I gained a pound when I weighed in at weight watchers tonight.  Ugh.

I hope you enjoy the song.